In the River of Blood

[ooc: Its okay, I've been busy with car problems ]

Gavin took in her lyrics and his cerulean optics turned more icy. "Of course I will go with you" He smiled in her direction, though his optics still shone cold in the warm morning light. He nudged her softly and licked her again, his bubble gum hued tongue not lingering too long on her. "I am ready to go whenever you are, take your time" His gaze moved from watching her to the bloodied form of her brother. He looked too young to be in such state. His mind wandered onto why her sister Flare would want her dead. "Why does your sister want you dead?". He brought his icy gaze back to her, was this what love was? He was so confused, he had only known her for one night. Could he love her? Arghhh he huffed inside of his mind, confusion was coursing through him. He still watched her, wondering what he should say next... He decided to keep the thoughts to himself, waiting to see if she would make a move back at him to prove that he wasn't the only one confused about what was between them.

[ooc: A little short, but meh. My muse isn't all here =/]

Gavin did not make a move as she came closer to him and rubbed against his face, the way she spoke sent a shiver throughout his frame. She was thanking him? He looked at her with a slightly perplexed expression playing across his features. The morning was slowly fading into an early afternoon. Soon enough, it would be very hot and they had to start their journey. He watched her, she was blushing! A smile came into play on his raven kissers. He rose and moved closer to her, rubbed his tiara against hers like she had done him. When he got close to her auds he spoke, voice lyrically soft and sweet "You don't have to thank me for anything". As he pulled away he could not help but continue to smile. He listened to her as she spoke about her sister, she did not know why Flare had wanted her gone? He wanted to sigh in frustration, but kept it to himself. He simply sank back onto his midnight haunches and thought about things.

There were things in his past he had done, things he wished every day that he could take back. He now knew why he had resented his parents so much, it wasn't because of their smothering, instead it was because they confused him. They confused him about what he was supposed to be. They had held such high expectations for him as he was the first born. The night everything unraveled he had begun to change who he was. Even now, he was still confused. The only thing that brought balance to him was now her. Everything in his life revolved around her. He knew he could not tell her such thoughts yet. It would be such a relief if he could tell her. His mind flooded with the memory of his sisters crimson in his kissers. He did not understand why he had killed her, that was the true reason he had left. It was the true reason his father had sent a party after him...

Gavin snapped out of the trance he was in and he was again looking at her, his world. The smile was still in place as he began to speak again, lyrics a little more hushed this time. He had to tell her another piece of his past, if he was to allow her to love someone like himself, she had to know everything about him. "Dawn...." A small tear slid out of his cerulean optics and he looked away from her and to the water that was behind them "....One of my sisters.... I ..." How could he tell her?! He panicked and could not look back at her, but he could not tell her. How would she react? The memory flooded into his mind once more and his azule optics closed and he was back there. The night was dark and his mind had been swirling for weeks since they had been born. He remembered the sour taste in his mouth as he had congratulated his father about the new whelps. His cerulean orbs fluttered open and looked back to Dawn, but he did not finish speaking, instead he sat there. His mind raced ...

He had begun to speak without thinking and Gavin panicked inside of his mind. What would she say about him nearly killing his nearly helpless sister? He wondered if she had even survived. She had been whining and whining and whining and he just wanted to shut her up! His mind replayed the event over and over and over. What would he say....What would he say to Dawn? Could he really let his guard down and let her inside of him? Could he share every dark secret he held? He huffed out yet another sigh and began to speak, his gaze looking straight to the ground. He could not look into her eyes when he told her this. He rose off his ebony rump and dropped his tassel, his lyrics were almost inaudible. He was ashamed of what he had done, and every part of him was showing that to her so it seemed.

"...Dawn..." He began slowly repeating her name again "I... I may have killed my sister..." There, he said it... But he was not done. "That was the reason my father wanted me brought to him, I overheard him tell Storm that he wanted me brought to him.." He paused, still not making eye contact with her. "Dawn, that's why I left, everything in me had changed, I snapped... She wouldn't stop and I was so young then..." He finally brought his silvery hued orbs up to look at her, his auds pinned to his ebony tiara. A tear slid out of his sky hued oculars and he began to speak again, still soft "I regret doing this to her, she was so small and helpless... I couldn't stop .. She was my sister!" His lyrics bitter towards the end. He was angry with himself, and that bitter note in his lyrics said it all. Maybe he had done it out of jealousy towards her? He did not know, all he knew was that as he ran the metal tang of her blood could still be tasted when he swallowed and even now he could still faintly taste this. Maeli was dead because of him, his precious Maeli.. "I loved Maeli, she was so sweet and funny... That night though, she was just... different..." He stopped though. He needed to let her process what he had just told her. He moved a little closer to her, and allowed his auds to no longer be pinned down, he watched her and waited to see a reaction. This secret was something he had never shared with another, and this was him putting her to the test. He hoped she could handle it.... He could only hope....

Ooc|| Please forgive me for not posting in so long, I have been trying to get settled in with boyfriend and his family and also full time online in school.

BIC||

Gavin un pinned his auds and allowed her lyrics to calm him. It was true that he had loved Maeli, but something had changed about him that night. His cerulean orbs fluttered open and he looked at her, but before he could even attempt to speak someone else was with them. He turned around, the hair on his neck stood tall. A rumble began in his chest, and it was not a playful one. His auds pinned back "Who. Are. You.?" He spat through his teeth, lyrics like venom. His ebony tassel flecked in annoyance. Was there something she had not told him? Did she know this other male? Even though they had not taken each other as mates he felt it his duty to protect her. He did not let go of his stance, instead he watched this stranger through cold optics, his breathe coming even ...

Why was he circling Dawn like this? Why would he say that word, mate? Gavin observed, taking in anything that might prove to help him if something were to go wrong. The other hessian mentioned them hunting .. He parted his charcoal kissers to speak, his lyrics still filled with venom "Actually, Dawn and I were just leaving. I think it is best you go your own way.." He ended the statement with a sick smile. He had no doubt in his mind that he could take this Koa person on. He moved a little closer to Dawn and bumped the male, as if saying back off. He did not want to give a verbal warning but he would if it was needed. He had barely begun to open up to her and now he was acting like her protector. They might as well be mates, even though he had not asked her yet. The blood that had begun to boil calmed down, he hoped this other loner would move along. He and Dawn had other plans that they needed to attend too.

Gavin watched this other wolf leave them be and his heckles calmed down. He listened as Dawn admitted that they should leave, he could hear the tones in her voice saying she was ready to let her brother go. He did not respond, there was nothing to say. He brought himself back to normal stance and followed after her. After this encounter with that stranger he knew that there was something going on with him. It tore him in so many ways to have to keep how he felt to himself, but at the same time he knew that was how it was supposed to be. His pure raising had once made him sick, could it all have been a phase? Could he finally be who he was meant to be? No. He knew in his heart and mind he could not go back to being the same as he was before that night with Maeli. Her screams rang in his mind and he sighed to himself. He wished it didn't trouble him so, because he had changed...

Still, there was nothing he could not handle now. He pushed Maeli and everything in his past in the darkest corner of his mind, only focusing on Dawn and what might come of this. As he caught up with her, he turned his dial in her direction and gave her a smile as they padded side by side. "Where are we going?" His lyrics were charming and relaxed. He would follow her wherever she lead, she had him wrapped around her paws. It was in that moment he knew she was the one. Sooner or later his feelings would come out, but now was not the right time.

As she had turned to look towards him, Gavin saw that look that played on her features so perfectly. She was as relaxed with him as he was with her. His muscles relaxed and he smiled. Everything was slowly starting to get better, and now that he had let her in on his dirty little secret he felt an emotion he had not felt in a very long time. Relief. He cuffed out a laugh as her stomach growled, his was getting to that point as well. He could not remember the last time he had truly eaten. "I agree, we can find something to eat and we will go from there" He paused for a moment and let his jet pelt be warmed by the now late morning sun. It was a perfect day and everything was going his way. He could only hope that things would remain this easy, after finding her brother dead this morning...

He did not let his mind go any further. He dipped his tiara upwards and inhaled deeply. He was trying to find some scent of some game that might be bigger than a rabbit. His cerulean pools fluttered open as a scent did hit. It was a deer not far from where they were. "I caught the scent of a deer not far from here" He looked to her "Shall we investigate?" He said in playful tones. He kept moving, but this time changing the course to where the scent had come from. He was now on the hunt, and this was where things would really get interesting. He wanted to see what they could do together as a team, and this was the perfect test.

He watched her take the beast down almost single handed and he grinned. All the fears Gavin had, were now gone. He knew he could trust her with everything now more than ever. He grinned as he slowed down and took in her lyrics, she was praising him... He should be the one praising her. He moved close to her and licked her maw softly and moved to tear into the belly of the kill. He did not take any meat though, he would let her have the first taste. As he tore the skin open, he back away "Ladies first" His lyrics were charmingly sweet. He sank back onto his hindquarters and let his bubblegum hued tongue loll out of his mouth with laziness. He had not worked hard, but it had been enough trying to not get kicked. He waited for her to enjoy the kill before he would take any, the crimson he had licked from her maw slowly ate away at him. His hunger was beginning to grow more and more...

Gavin listened as she told him to stay put. "I will" He responded, it was short, sweet and easy and with that he smiled. He realized how easy it was to just be around her. It was driving him more and more crazy not knowing when he could make her his forever. He looked up and saw some ravens flying above and simply kept smiling. His mind was far too gone to even think that something was off about that. He smelled the same smell he had earlier when that male had approached them. He looked over, his azule optics scanning the terra very carefully. The feeling of being oblivious faded as quick as it had come on and suddenly he was on alert. He cuffed out for Dawn to come back, something really was not right. He did not know what it was...

Gavins auds perked, waiting to hear Dawn come back. His dial leaned forward, he was still seated... Something was off, his stomach turned at the thought of him losing Dawn. He rose to all 4 pillars, his charcoal frame fuller than it had been before he had eaten. A smile played on his maw as he made his way the same direction Dawn had gone. The smile was not something sweet, instead it was one twisted. If he saw that same bruja with Dawn again he was not going to be pleased. He could hear their voices more and more the closer he got. He came into the clearing, his orbs danced easily enough onto the form of Dawn and then turned icy to the bruja. He stopped as he came to Dawns side and his gaze remained on the brute. He parted his kissers to speak, his canines dislodging from one another with ease "Did you not understand what I said before?" His icy orbs paired with the threat of a growl in his jowls should let this other brute know that he meant business. His mind wandered onto why this hessian had come back... There was nothing that he could think of other than that there was more to this hessians story, meaning that he had not told them the truth. He inhaled deeply and could smell the same scent he had smelled with Dawn at the river. Alarm bells were really ringing in his brain.

He remained standing "Who sent you?" He showed his canines every chance he could. No one was going to take Dawn away from him. The thought had crossed his mind that he could be super paranoid, and that thought still remained. If this other hessian wanted his trust there was a lot that he had to do to prove that he was not trying to kill them. He would do anything to protect Dawn, and he meant anything. He looked away from Koa and brought his gaze to Dawn, his icy gaze gone in an instant and all that was there was warmth. He knew he loved her, but did she love him? He sighed, but did not speak... He simply waited for Koa to speak...

A smile formed on his own kissers to answer the one the other brute had given him. It was not a friendly smile at all, Gavin was working out a plan in his dial. It would be simple enough for him to 'take care' of this hessian. He snapped alert when he heard Dawn snarl and issue a threat of her own. He watched this other male for some sort of response. He nuzzled Dawn softly, he was letting her know that he could take care of this. He turned his attention back to Koa and parted his maw to speak, his lyrics still harsh, but calm "Listen, just turn around and walk away now..." He paused for a moment and smiled wider "... Before you do something you may regret". The ending to his statement had a mean bite to it. This male knew nothing about Gavin, neither did Dawn of course. He did not want to show this side of him to her, but he knew eventually it would have come out. He wanted to prove to her that he could defend her and any family they may have some day. He arched his back slightly, the tuffs of his coat on his scruff stood tall.... He was ready and waiting...